Friday, May 14, 2010

Life's not fair

We all know that, right? But sometimes, it really just sucks. Today, a wonderful woman and her husband lost their forth child. Their first two, twin boys, were born at 20 weeks when I was still pregnant with Eva. Then, somewhat recently, they miscarried their third child. Today, at 20 weeks, she gave birth to another son. I pray that they will continue to lean on God as they have in the past and that they will find some comfort and peace in his loving arms. As I grieve for them today and revisit once again the pain of losing a child, this song is in my head. It was written by the lead singer of Selah and his wife after learning their sweet daughter Audrey had a condition that was "incompatible with life" while they were still pregnant with her.

I Will Carry You
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
people say that I am brave but i`m not
Truth is I`m barely hanging on
But there`s a greater story
Written long before me
Because he loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the one who`s chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to his voice
And he says

I`ve shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And i will praise the one who`s chosen me
To carry you

1 comment:

*Melissa* said...

Life is not fair, and my heart also aches for her :( I was praying so hard that he would stay put just long enough. I cannot imagine the deep ache she must be experiencing and the long road of healing ahead.
I hope she is somehow able to experience God's peace... All she wants is to be a mama :(